broken family broken hearts...

for an hour or so today we seriously considered bringing brother bear into our home...

"failed" placement

sigh...

prayed hard, looked into buying a minivan...

even called the case worker and said we were thinking about it

couldn't do it

bee reminded us how important it is for him to have his own room by having a gianormous fit... over something unrelated...

to bring in big brother would break our #1 rule. bee gets his own room, a sanctuary. if we had a room i think it would have happened.

my heart is breaking...

praying he gets a placement in our county... a family who will work with us for visitation (current family seems overloaded w/ special needs etc)