feeling hypocritical...
want to see biodad and yell at him
praying for grace
praying for ability to forgive...
some may think he "deserves" my b#$*chy thoughts... even if he does - what do i deserve????
as a believer i know what i deserve and what i've been given...
not through my power, but through HIS love and forgiveness
i said mean and nasty things about biodad tonight to my hubby... i want to lash out... but i speak of forgiveness, of modeling christ's love to those who need it...
but in my heart... i'm pissed and i think he's worthless... ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
fighting it... praying for him more earnestly
want to see biodad and yell at him
praying for grace
praying for ability to forgive...
some may think he "deserves" my b#$*chy thoughts... even if he does - what do i deserve????
as a believer i know what i deserve and what i've been given...
not through my power, but through HIS love and forgiveness
i said mean and nasty things about biodad tonight to my hubby... i want to lash out... but i speak of forgiveness, of modeling christ's love to those who need it...
but in my heart... i'm pissed and i think he's worthless... ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
fighting it... praying for him more earnestly
No comments:
Post a Comment