anxiety

anxiety still high... but working on speaking w/ husband... have had a few freak out moments... and he is trying to roll with it. the main issue has been clean up from flood (yes ---- 3 mo's later the house is still upside down) so he is doing what he can to resolve it. it's VERY hard to get stuff done w/ a two year old in the house. the 5 yr old is helpful, the 6 mos old stays still... the 2 yr old is in it all undoing what has just been done and isn't self entertained.

in addition work is out of control - all the teachers are stressed about a new schedule we have, exams without enough time to prepare the kids, and some other stuff which does not seem to be in the best interest of the students. all decisions made by legislators NOT educators.

there is another sad story which isn't mine to tell... close friend... major complications, will be losing her child shortly after he is born.

my sweet son's behavior is beyond out of control lately. in fact... i was staying home from church to try to get a leg up on some alone time while listening to my favorite hymns and cleaning the growing mess. but 10 minutes into the church service the hubby calls to have me come get my boy. "mocking voice" has been a struggle lately - and he was doing it in church... ugh...

and the cherry on the top... my 92 year old grandfather is in the hospital, and it doesn't look good. i haven't been able to spend as much time with him as i would like in the past 6 mos... but know that we have done what has had to be done.

all of this at my favorite time of the year... and i haven't even pulled out our advent box... so sad to think this christmas season will pass and i feel that i haven't been speaking into the soul of my children...

<<<>>> this too shall pass....