oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness...
so...
home study wasn't as scary as i thought it would be - she spent the majority of the time chillin w/ us in the living room asking basic questions
- why foster care?
- going through a list of characteristics of children and having us rank - preferrable, acceptable, will consider, and would not consider
towards the middle (or maybe end) she let us know that her goal is to have us licensed by the end of march.
AS IN THE END OF THIS MONTH
---- it's been 3 days and it still hasn't quite sunk in... babies before Easter... hmmmm....
feelings are - PANIC, fear, second guessing, excitement, terror, awe, confusion
with all the research i had done - this was not what we expected.
now i am reminding myself her goal - the ideal, MAY not be reality.
we really thought May more towards June.
wow.
we may get kids before Bee's bed from Rooms 2 Go gets delivered (next day delivery my tushie)
Needless to say, dear hubby is having to go into hyper drive trying to finish the addition stuff... and i see the self doubt in him arise. can he physically do this? can he really put the framing of the last door up... as i saw him panic over the room, i realize he is just as freaked out as i am, but being slightly less verbal... it's interesting to see him express this, greatful the Father whispered in my ear so I could pull back and let him freak out and be supportive.
babies, toddlers, lil' ones... are we ready? i think so, i know so, but just as a momma panics in the last months of preggieness, the same questions are popping up for me...
well - time to go keep up the clean house!
****Funniest event of the home visit -> Bee walking around showing Miss Ray that the rooms "aren't dirty anymore"
oy!
so...
home study wasn't as scary as i thought it would be - she spent the majority of the time chillin w/ us in the living room asking basic questions
- why foster care?
- going through a list of characteristics of children and having us rank - preferrable, acceptable, will consider, and would not consider
towards the middle (or maybe end) she let us know that her goal is to have us licensed by the end of march.
AS IN THE END OF THIS MONTH
---- it's been 3 days and it still hasn't quite sunk in... babies before Easter... hmmmm....
feelings are - PANIC, fear, second guessing, excitement, terror, awe, confusion
with all the research i had done - this was not what we expected.
now i am reminding myself her goal - the ideal, MAY not be reality.
we really thought May more towards June.
wow.
we may get kids before Bee's bed from Rooms 2 Go gets delivered (next day delivery my tushie)
Needless to say, dear hubby is having to go into hyper drive trying to finish the addition stuff... and i see the self doubt in him arise. can he physically do this? can he really put the framing of the last door up... as i saw him panic over the room, i realize he is just as freaked out as i am, but being slightly less verbal... it's interesting to see him express this, greatful the Father whispered in my ear so I could pull back and let him freak out and be supportive.
babies, toddlers, lil' ones... are we ready? i think so, i know so, but just as a momma panics in the last months of preggieness, the same questions are popping up for me...
well - time to go keep up the clean house!
****Funniest event of the home visit -> Bee walking around showing Miss Ray that the rooms "aren't dirty anymore"
oy!
Nesting time! I'm proud of all the hard work you've put into getting ready for peanut. Let me know if you need any help.
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