she has no idea

momma bear has been so excited to go live with her mommy and daddy ---

but i don't think she gets how much will change...

new school - new friends - new church

driving home from their daycare she was in the back saying "auntie auntie... i want ashee, i want gamma, i want poppa"

my eyes filled with tears and i fought hard to keep the car between the yellow lines...

"ok baby --- auntie will call.... maybe they'll come to dinner tomorrow"

they will...

but how many more times will they get to see them...

we are hoping to see them again after they go home - but will my family - my friends who are like family? maybe but not very likely....

last night i was overcome with sadness (blame that song by taylor swift) --- but i spent a good hour just steadily crying... not the ugly cry --- but tears pouring as i did my end of night chores... and since, it's been more and more...

every hug is savored every kiss every moment (even in the midst of some fits and such - adjustments are so hard for these small ones)

----sadsadsad----- happy for them