No news=good news????????????

Haven't heard from bear parents since Wednesday. 4 days no biggie. But no thanksgiving text. I sent them one. No response to a text on Black Friday (saw a deal on something they need) praying no news is good.

Also feeling guilty about how much I love the peace and quiet and easier travel of 1 child.

CLOUD 9

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

better than dark chocolate, better than a good margarita or a glass of red wine.. better than that fabulous feeling right before you drift off to sleep...

holding my sweet little man...

got a surprise phone call today... turns out kids have been sick for a week and parents have been stressed out

mom called asking for help... hard for her

as a precaution - i won't give cash... but asked her what they needed... drove it out... had planned on dropping off stuff at the door and leaving (didn't think they would be home)...

parents called as i was getting ready to leave - they told momma bear that i was there and they wanted me to wait...

she ran up grinning ear to ear - Auntie M Auntie M... big hugs... sweet happy girl...

then their Mommy came around from the van... and he saw me - my sweet baby bear - he practically leaped out of her arms to see me... Mommy smiled at his eagerness... she handed him to me and he snuggled in right to his spot... that spot every small child has on the ones they love... he snuggled in... then perked up - looked at me as if to check it was really me and snuggled in again.

we went inside and i spent 20 minutes hugging babies... sweet momma bear asked after bee...  baby bear even let me sit down as he snuggled on me (usually he would want down if you sat down)... i put him down to see him toddle around... so sweet... he would toddle away and then come back and lay his head on my lap...

then i got out of their hair so kids could do their routines for bedtime...

parents were so awesome - thanking me over and over again... but not in a weird way... just right...

i can't even begin to explain how wonderful i feel - the worry is relieved - also found out some of the info we had was flawed - parents doing well...

so thankful :)

One week

Since I have gotten a picture. 5 days since a text. Worrying

Privacy

One of the hardest things about fostering is maintaining confidentiality. Esp when it impacts us. Having issues now where things are rough. Putting on happy face, answering questions as best I can. I didn't do as well with keeping info quiet and regretted it. Not everyone understands the ins and outs of addiction or the trials of poverty.

New torture

Cute baby same age as bear ahead of me in long line. Cooing just like him. Ugh

Dollar store

Stopped to pick up school stuff

Somehow everything reminded me of the babies and how they won't be with us for the holidays.

I will respect their choice

Very bummed. Not seeing babies THIS weekend. 3 more weeks. Don't know why. It's cool.

Desperately missing the baby.