i don't know if it's just being in the depths of craziness of a new placement (more later on lil dude) or if it's time passing...
but today is my 7 year alive anniversary --- and i didn't freak out once... it's there --- but i am able to push it off... no anxiety no freaking out... just a recognition of what it is and zip = moving on...
maybe it's because i've gone through the loss of reunification on foster side???
maybe it's time finally covering the wound with a thicker scar???
crazy...
hope... for those of you who stumble onto this little blog and are in the newer stages - have it... LIVE life, continue on.... one day i pray it will be a bitter-bitter-bitter sweet memory... a pang... but the knowledge that just like harry potter's scar (forgive me we are reading it...) a scar of pain but it makes you who you are...
but today is my 7 year alive anniversary --- and i didn't freak out once... it's there --- but i am able to push it off... no anxiety no freaking out... just a recognition of what it is and zip = moving on...
maybe it's because i've gone through the loss of reunification on foster side???
maybe it's time finally covering the wound with a thicker scar???
crazy...
hope... for those of you who stumble onto this little blog and are in the newer stages - have it... LIVE life, continue on.... one day i pray it will be a bitter-bitter-bitter sweet memory... a pang... but the knowledge that just like harry potter's scar (forgive me we are reading it...) a scar of pain but it makes you who you are...
People say that time heals all wounds. I'm not sure I agree. Maybe time helps us feel the wounds differently. Nevertheless, I am thankful for your life. 7 years with B and of life, significant reasons to give thanks. Hugs!
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