Wrong way

5.5 months later, I took wrong turn home. Started driving to daycare

Sigh

One of those things.

Confession

The bears now live just under an hour away

They were in process of weekend visits when I got my iPhone. I set the weather apps to include their town.

I occasionally still check to see what the weather is like.

There is a thin line between sentimental and stalking :)

hippity hoppity

prepping my big boy's basket tonight and getting a bit reminiscent...

this time last year, i was prepping 3 lil' kid baskets...

that will never be again (we will NOT do 3 again)...

missing the babies tons...

the package we sent them should have arrived today... no word...

praying they are fine...

Turning right, wishing it were left

As we drive across the state.... we pass a sign.

Turn right for in laws
Turn left for babies' town
Van turns right
I feel my heart pull left

Still no word

This Easter will be so different from last year.

over?

sent another text today (thinking MAYBE their phones had been turned off - wanted to give them the chance)

low key - hey we'll be in the neighborhood - can we come by...

still no word...

thinking it's really over... but the last time i thought that - we got to see them...

more at peace with it b/c the last time we saw my sweet babes - i soaked it in --- looked in their faces and thought that it could be it...

we got to give them christmas gifts... going to mail a small package of clothes i bought...

figure we will still send postcards occasionally...

whether or not they ever contact us - i still love them...

sigh...

My favorite kind

So we got a call for a set of brothers for the night. Older than usual, but I could tell the worker was desperate. Said yes. Cleaned house in tizzy 2 hours later they call... Found another placement that could keep them long term. That's my favorite - say yes even though I don't want to, get house straightened up like it should be anyway, be help, but still get to sleep in on my first day of spring break :)

betrayal?

i have my screen set on my phone...

it's me and her...

i can't bring myself to change the picture...

but some day there will be a new baby...

feel like it's betrayal to take her picture off

the weird things of foster care!