do i dare pray

i know GOD can do anything

i know ANYTHING is possible

i know though... HE sometimes has a plan that makes no sense to me

as i stood over my tiny nephew in the NICU and looked at his sweet small frame with wires and tubes coming from every which way... the prayer stuck in my heart...

then i felt it come

like a DEMAND

YOU CAN FIX THIS!!!!! 


YOU SHOULD FIX THIS!!!! 


THEY DON'T DESERVE THIS AFTER ALL THEY'VE ALREADY BATTLED!!!!


as i drove home across the state, i felt myself searching and seeking more... if i could i would sit at his feet, wash them with my tears and the tears of my s-i-l. dry them off with my hair....

my heart is at his feet - my soul lies prostrate

this lil' boy is already a miracle and has overcome other diagnoses - reversed diagnoses... i NEVER dared to pray for healing when it seemed impossible....

now that there's a chance, i'm afraid too...