paralyzing anxiety

i had had a rough day

the thoughts were bombarding my brain

life is not anything like i had planned

and not in the good way

i walked into the publix and everywhere i looked i saw suffering in other's eyes...

i felt the pressure on my chest - the shortness of breath - the heartbreak

the feelings i had had the first few months after bee was born

i was able to get it together just enough to grab some frozen dinners, an avocado, and a bottle of pinot grigio

sometimes it's still way too hard

but it'll be better

i have to restart and refresh

i need to be back in the word

i need to self reflect and catch the downward spiral at the beginning instead of the end

i need to count the blessings

i need to breathe